if the moon is your lantern


October 12th, 2020

The List of Everything I've Written @ 12:00 am

*In desperate need of updating and reorganizing*

Under Construction! If you are here to find something, you could use the tags or drop me a note and I'll help you.



Fics are listed by pairings. Some of them have multiple pairings and are listed under each (unless the pairing is only just mentioned or alluded to, in which case, it is listed under the primary pairing). Gen stories have a variety of characters. You can also search those by the tags. Where there is only one story for a pairing (so far) the link goes directly to the story.

There's m/m slash, femslash, some het here and there, and gen. Many stories are R or NC-17. If you are underage or are offended by smut, don't click on those! I have written a lot of Remus/Sirius, but not managed to organize those yet. And yes, I have written Pomona slash twice!

On to the fics: )

April 29th, 2012

FIC: Close as He Can Get, H/D, NC-17 @ 05:21 pm

Here I am getting started on reposting things here (and adding them to the masterlist). I am going to get organized and catch up. Just you watch.

This was originally posted here at Daily Deviant as my February entry.

Title: Close As He Can Get
Characters/Pairings: Harry/Draco
Rating: NC-17
Kinks/Themes Chosen: ceraunophilia
Other Warnings: Sex in a precarious position.
Word Count: 2,250
Summary/Description: Harry's been gone for far too long.
Author's Notes: This is a PWP. Nothing else to see here.

The smell of the coming storm )

April 26th, 2012

Life, some recs, and a duck @ 09:57 pm


Not dead or even close, really. But it has been a helluva year and a half or maybe three. I know I haven't been gone that long, but it feels like it. I'm kind of emerging from a fog, at least I hope I'm emerging. Some things I have learned recently:

1) You all are awesome and [info]gryffindorj has an extra side of wonderful. Thank you to her and all of you who participated in [info]for_min. ♥ x 1,000.
2) I've missed being around here more regularly or at all. I've missed writing more and commenting and rec'ing and I hope to be back and stop having to apologize to mods as of…right now.
3) Cancer sucks and so does losing a parent and my family is actually crazier than I thought.
4) I could grow old and wither away waiting for the kid to get out of the car. Seriously. I have tried to wait him out, just see how long it would take if I don't prompt him, hurry him along, pull him out of the car. I have never, not once, been able to wait him out. I always lose it and say, "would you please get out of the car?!" I asked him the other day to guess how many days of my life I had spent waiting for him to get out of the car thus far and he said, "About four weeks. Hey, have you ever noticed how people who have cats tend to get more cats?"
5) I have not updated my masterlist or reposted fest fics here for about a year and a half. I shall get right on that…now.
6) Here's a song about a duck that really wants some grapes: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MtN1YnoL46Q

And some recs )

January 10th, 2012

Page 45 @ 09:42 pm

As seen at [info]woldy and [info]r_grayjoy and others I'm sure:

Pick up the book nearest to you. Turn to page 45. The first sentence there describes your sex life in 2012.

"Anglers are not patient."

I have nothing to add.


August 24th, 2011

some FLAIL!!! @ 10:34 pm

I was out of town last week and did not get on line at all because of lack of internet and many kids around. As a result I: missed my [info]daily_deviant posting date (thank goodness for the benevolent [info]r_grayjoy for a new date and for [info]woldy for communicating my fail to her); missed the NEWT level trivia test at [info]rs_games (but because Team Sirius is made of awesome, we still won without my alleged brilliance – or because I didn't participate, not sure which); and I was nearly booted out of [info]hd_holidays (thank all that is good for [info]gryffindorj for telling the mods she was sure I was not dropping out and letting me know that I was on the bad participant list – I hate being a bad participant). See? NEVER, EVER leave the internets!!!! Bad things happen. There might be a lesson about kids here as well… HOWEVER, I choose to take all of these as indications of the fabulousness of my flist. And now for MORE fabulousness of my flist:

The wonderful [info]torino10154 wrote me a fabulous fic for my birthday!! It is h/d, rated R for ridiculously sexy (what?) Appetizer. It is a delicious bit of naughtiness right before the in-laws come calling. It is much loveliness in 665 words -- more than worth the time. Please go and read it and leave her a lovely comment.

Some of the themes at [info]daily_deviant this month are body writing, authority role plays, and Charlie/Draco as an alternate pairing. As you might expect, this has resulted in some delicious porn. Here are some I really enjoyed and you might, too:

Four Times Charlie Had Authority Over Draco and One Time He Didn't by [info]snegurocka_lee
Pairing: Charlie/Draco. Brief implied past Charlie/Kingsley.
Rating: NC-17
Theme Chosen: Authority figure role-play... which blurs the line between playing and actual. (It is not D/s, though!)
Other Warnings: EWE for Draco
Word Count: ~8,500
Summary: It started the week after the final battle, in a Ministry holding cell with a fake Auror and a suspect who was used to doing as he was told.

Brilliant characterizations and UST and sexiness oh my!!!! It is funny and smart and feels like a much, much longer story in the very best way. Oh, and there's a wonderful Bill/Fleur cameo. I always love when Lee throws in Bill and/or Fleur. She builds the relationship slowly and it makes complete sense. Oooh, happy, romantic ending, too!!! Wonderful read.

A Custom-ary Intimacy by [info]woldy
Characters/Pairings: Charlie/Draco
Rating: R
Theme Chosen: authority figure roleplay
Other Warnings: appearance of dubcon
Word Count: ~2000 words
Summary:"You can let me inspect your bag, or you can return to..." Malfoy glances down at the parchment in his hand "...Romania."

Funny, sweet, sexy story with a take on the theme you might not expect. It will keep you guessing a bit. My favorite moment is when…well, you'll have to see for yourself because I don't want to give it away. And the ending? LOL!!! I have more to say, but I really can't. Just read it.

Magic Touch by [info]torino10154
Rating: NC-17
Kinks/Themes Chosen: Massage Parlors, alternate pairing
Other Warnings: Handjob, anal, fingering
Word Count: ~1740
Summary/Description: Now that he's back in England, Charlie Weasley's opened a massage parlor.

Charlie runs a massage parlor. Draco is his client. Why are you still here? Okay, really, one of things that I love about [info]torino10154's writing is that she usually writes drabble to fairly short stories and you never feel shortchanged in the story department. She manages complete scenes and stories with real characters in her shorter stories and that amazes me. This is no exception.

Logos by [info]kelly_chambliss
Pairings: Rita Skeeter/Dolores Umbridge
Rating: R-ish
Kinks/Themes Chosen: body writing
Other Warnings: blood play
Word Count: 1400
Summary: For Rita Skeeter, "word" and "sex" and "blood" are synonyms.

Most of you know I'm pretty vanilla in my tastes and normally would probably not read a fic with blood play. However, one thing I've learned in HP fandom is the danger of saying you never like something in a fic. This is not a romance, and that wouldn't be right with these two, so that is a good thing. This has Kelly_chambliss' crisp, vivid writing and razor sharp characterizations that are a pleasure to read for the craft of it. The intensity of the story and the characters is so well done.

Please give some of these a read and don't forget to leave a line or two saying what you enjoyed!

AND IN MORE OMG FLAIL!!! [info]gryffindorj has written for me 30K OF TEDDY/JAMES AUROR FIC! I've just started it, but already there is a fabulous Daddy/Auror Harry, Rose as James' bff, an old crush, UST, a lovely Mummy Ginny, funny Ron and Hermione, sexiness everywhere AND THAT IS JUST IN THE FIRST HALF OF THE FIRST PART. I have a glass of wine and the file open, so you know where I'll be until I fall asleep with my face on my keyboard: Quiet, by gryffindorj!!

August 1st, 2011

FIC: The Man in Front, Ron/Draco, NC-17 @ 09:28 pm

Are we back? Of course I chose right at the beginning of LJ downtime to post a little fic, so I thought I'd give it another go! It was in very belated honor of [info]elizassecrets bday and is a bit of Ron/Draco silliness. There's some fluff, some snarking at each other, and a little smut. Oh, and Harry can't believe he trusted them.

Title: The Man in Front
Pairing/Characters: Ron/Draco, Harry
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Harry never lets them work together. Maybe this is why.
Word Count: 2,800

It is here at LJ, here at DW, and here at IJ.

July 25th, 2011

FIC: The Man in Front, Ron/Draco, NC-17, for [info]elizassecret @ 09:50 pm

Title: The Man in Front
Author: [info]mindabbles
Pairing/Characters: Ron/Draco, Harry
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Harry never lets them work together. Maybe this is why.
Word Count: 2,800
Notes: A most happy, very belated to my dear [info]elizassecret. Everyone should be so lucky as to have one. Thank you so much to [info]woldy for the quick and brilliant beta. They would still be trapped in a tunnel if it weren't for her. ♥ to you both.

The man in front of him might be a complete arse most of the time )


July 1st, 2011

typo of the night @ 09:45 pm

Is "Scoprius" the sports version of a hybrid toyota? I've typed this enough times tonight that it must mean something.

Here's a conversation from my recent travels. This is the one that made me laugh inside. I shall spare you things the uncle to which I gladly claim no relation said, mostly because I don't want to see them in print:

sort of FIL: Did I ever tell you about the time I nearly got poisoned?
me: No (*please don't be an offensive story, please, please)
soFIL: *Goes on for a while about being on vacation with some friends, I drift off and then I snap back to attention and realize that he's now talking about eating a lot of pistachios...his face swelled up and his doctor friend was taking a nap*
me: So you're allergic to pistachios?
soFIL: Haven't had one since. It's not a big deal, I mean it's not as if I have to say I don't eat pork.

Hi Flist! I've been mostly not here and mostly not sane for the past three months, maybe more, right? I hope to be a little more sane and here now. I miss you. Oh, but first I have to write about 4,000 words tonight. K, see you later!


April 1st, 2011

next gen recs @ 09:42 pm

Here are some recs from hp_nextgen_fest for your weekend reading and viewing pleasure. Don't just take my word for it, though, click on the masterlist and try something new – there's gen, m/m, f/f, art, porn and not porn. Something I wrote is in there. Can you guess? :)

I still have some reading and commenting to do, but here are some I've enjoyed so far:

Title: The Pome and the Pin
PG-13, 12,632 words, Dominique Weasley/Elladora Longbottom,
Summary: The end of another year, another Christmas, another family reunion—Loner Dominique Weasley must trade in her travelling boots for a pair of house shoes as she returns home to celebrate the holidays with the great Weasley horde. But this Christmas is like none other; after meeting the vivacious Elladora Longbottom, Dominique's outlook on life will never be the same.
I enjoyed the magic here. It was super creative and you never forgot you were in a magical universe. There is a sweet discovery of romance in the background as well.

Title: Two Girls As a Work in Progress
G, Art, Implied Victoire/Scorpius,
Summary: Best friends getting ready for the ball.
Victoire and Scorpius are dressing in their gorgeous gowns – crossdressing (and the artist says probably transgender) Scorpius. The colors are gorgeous and both characters are stunning. What I liked most is the respectful way the artist portrayed a transgender Scorpius.

Title: Passion for Potions
R, 2380 words, Horace Slughorn/Scorpius Malfoy (ADW: Older than dirt/16)
Summary: Prompt 75) Slughorn's Slug Club meetings are now the hype of the Wizarding World. Scorpius knows that if he gets in good with Slughorn, his future will be set. Now all he has to do is be collected.
This is not a romance (heed warnings). There is no physical contact between the two, btw. It is really well written and doesn't make it out to be anything but what it is. Scorpius is scheming and knows exactly what he is getting into and Slughorn is skeezy. What I liked about this is that it takes what JKR handed us in the Slug Club to its prurient conclusion. Again, just really well written and unflinching.

Title: Middle Man
NC-17, 8700 words, Teddy/Albus and spoiler pairing.
Summary: Albus doesn't want anymore of James's hand-me-downs, especially when it comes to Teddy.
Prompt: #44: Al's sick of always getting James's hand-me-downs - there's no way he's waiting patiently in line when it comes to Teddy.
Hot and sweet, and hot, with a loveable idiot (at times) Albus who reminds me a bit of Harry in a good way. There's a really nice friendship between, well two other characters :), Teddy is love, and a hot as hell shower scene. A really, really fun read.

More to come soon! Go and read and give an anon author a little burst of joy.


March 30th, 2011

recs!! @ 09:32 pm

Holy hotness, people. Have you had a gander at Daily Deviant lately? The past few days have brought us some amazing collaborations!! So, have some recs, all m/m this time, all pornypornporn.

So, first there was Seeing Is Believing by [info]sdk and [info]torino10154. Here we have Harry/Draco AND Al/Scorpius, with lots of filthy sex and very wrong voyeurism. It is a quick and dirty 1800 words. You will not be sorry.

And then there was Rampaging Dragons and Libidinous Books: A Beginners Guide to Mastering Sex and Discovering Hidden Desires by [info]r_grayjoy and art (omg, LOTS of fabulous art) by [info]akatnamedeaster, and now we have Severus/Sirius in school, but not hate sex and not unrealistically schmoopy – somehow they pulled this off. There is a great variety of sexual activity here, but also so much story. These two are quite a team!!!

And as if THAT wasn't enough, there is H/D by [info]snegurochka_lee and [info]ericahpfa!!! Interoffice Communication -- here, for your pleasure, is magical sexting, UST, that culminates deliciously, totally recognizable Harry and Draco all grown-up. There is a lot of story here too, with Lee's fabulously tight and vibrant writing, and Erica's stunning artwork, with a kiss you can feel and hair you can run your fingers through.

And now I notice that there is a Bill/Neville, with some Severus/Harry by [info]alisanne and [info]unbroken_halo with art by [info]vividzephyr. Stop. Things are required of me!

And soon, we will have some [info]hp_nextgen_fest recs, because there is some fabulous stuff over there too and that is what I meant to post next!

Okay, must work on [info]rs_remix now. :)

February 22nd, 2011

thing one and thing two @ 08:44 pm

Thing one: five million years ago I said I would write some porny femslash for [info]magnetic_pole for no other reason than that she deserves it, and had a couple of birthdays. I finally did it, and it is over at Daily Deviant for my Feb posting. Maggie, I hope you enjoy it!

Pensioners' Passion, Ginny/Fleur, NC-17. 69 years after Voldemort's fall...

I tried for your other suggested pairing and came up with several ideas, none of which I could make work. Perhaps for your next birthday, 5 million years later. *hugs*

Thing Two: For anyone interested in a health and fitness game, I mod a community for such a thing. The community is called game_is_on. Many of you already participate, and if you don't, you've probably heard it mentioned around these parts, or seen a post for a few minutes when I posted one here instead of to the com by mistake...anyway, a new round is starting on March 9, and if you are interested, let me know. :)

February 3rd, 2011

FIC: Fine Art, R/S, PG @ 09:23 pm

Is it February? *scratches head* Well, I suppose I should start reposting my holiday fics. I had the pleasure of writing two for pinch hitters at [info]rs_small_gifts. I love that fest because it makes me write r/s again, because it is low stress and fun, and because my co-mods [info]magnetic_pole and [info]sambethe are fabulous. I wrote one first war angsty and one old-fashioned fluffy. This is the fluff:

Title: Fine Art
Author: [info]mindabbles
Recipient: [info]snow_blossoms
Rating: PG
Highlight for Warnings: *a hint of voyeurism-lite*
Word Count: 2,000
Summary: Sometimes all you have to do is ask.
Author's notes: [info]snow_blossoms, thank you so much for writing such a lovely pinch hit. I hope you enjoy this little thank you gift. Happy New Year and thank you from the smallgiftsmods. :) Thanks so much to [info]magnetic_pole for the beta help.

Fine Art )

January 3rd, 2011

Holiday fic for me part 2! @ 09:43 pm

I got Teddy/Scorpius over at Daily Deviant's Kinky Kristmas!! You should read this because it's my gift and it's lovely, but you should also check out the masterlist and read and view some of the amazing fic and art over there. It was a fantastic fest and [personal profile] r_grayjoy does such a fabulous job running it.

Title: On the Short Walk Home
Characters/Pairings: Teddy/Scorpius
Rating: NC-17
Kinks/Themes Included: Rimming, kissing
Other Warnings: Cluelessness on Scorpius's part?
Word Count: ~5000
Summary/Description: Christmas Eve, and all is not well in the new Potter/Malfoy household. But a walk home changes things for one Scorpius Malfoy.

And the author gave me Harry/Draco as a background pairing! They are a new couple and all lovey with each other and insisting that their kids join them for Christmas – much to Scorpius' chagrin. He's miserable. Enter Teddy Lupin, suave older man, upon whom Scorpius has had a crush since he was 14. :D It starts as a super-sexy one-off with his long-time crush (or so Scorpius assumes) and develops into, well you'll see. Sweet, sexy, hot, and tender. Give it a try and leave my gifter some love!


December 30th, 2010

fic for me part 1 @ 09:25 pm

Hi flist!! I have not been around much, eh? Busy, busy, blah, blah. You know, how do you folks with older kids do anything? Mine is no longer going to sleep at 8 pm (inconsiderate little monster), so my time to write, read, comment, chat with you all is shrinking. Grrrr. Do not want this. Anyway, that does not excuse my appalling lack of recs this holiday fest season, especially of the three lovely gifts I received at Woldy's HP femslash exchange, hd_holidays, and Daily Deviant's Kinky Kristmas.

Here's the first:

From Woldy's HP femslash exchange:

Title: Holiday Wish
Author: [info]miss_morland
Pairing: Minerva McGonagall/Poppy Pomfrey
Rating: G/PG
Summary: Five Christmas Eves in Minerva and Poppy's lives.
Word count: ~ 830

This is utterly lovely. It has everything I love about this pairing – a long, wonderful friendship, characterizations that seem just right for both of them, and the drama of living at Hogwarts through all the times that they did. It follows them through a long span of their lives (in reverse time line that works very well), and is really well-written. It is only 830 words, and if you don't have a smile on your face when you finish it, well, I don't know what to tell you.

Hope all of you have a wonderful (ETA) last day of 2011 -- or first. I mean, I hope you have a lovely last day too, but there's still time for that. I think I'll have another glass of wine.



November 4th, 2010

FIC: When All is Said and Done, Remus/Sirius, NC-17 @ 11:02 pm

Tags: , , ,

Padfoot is handsome and charming
And some find his brilliance disarming
But he doesn't care
'cause he never plays fair
Besides, the number of people who think he's hot and want to shag him is alarming.

"Hey," Remus said, leaning over to where Sirius was sprawled on his bed and smacking him
lightly on the back of his head. "You're not supposed to write your own limerick! Also, that last
line has far too many syllables, and it's complete shite."

"It rhymes, doesn't it? It's my birthday so I can do whatever I want. Rule 35."

There's no such thing as Rule 35 )

*cue drumroll*

[info]red_squared, [info]mindabbles, [info]midnitemaraud_r and [info]gryffindor_j proudly present round two:

Sirius Black's Bonfire Night Birthday Bash!

(No, it's not his official canon birthday. Because he doesn't have one, we took a few
liberties. What can we say - we like doing things like that.)

Bonfire of the Inanities by [info]midnitemaraud_r Rated: PG-13
Summary: Sirius is determined to build their bonfire the Muggle way.

Always Bet on Black by [info]gryffindor_j Rated: PG-13
Summary: On Halloween, 1981, Sirius got to the Potters first, changing their fate. Now, two years later, the war still rages while Remus tries to pick up the missing pieces of his past.

Best things in life are free by [info]red_squared Rated: PG-13
Summary: "I'm so proud of you, doubling your entendres at last."

And my contribution:

Title: When All is Said and Done
Author: [info]mindabbles
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3,552
Prompt: Bath
Characters and/or Pairings: Remus/Sirius, James, and mentions of Peter and Lily
Summary: I want him to forget that I ever accused him, but more, I want to believe him. I want him to tremble apart in my hands.
Warnings: Angst, first person, make up sex. Oh, and there is no actual bath in this fic.
Disclaimer: The characters are not mine. If they were, they would be celebrating their 51st birthdays together. Together.
Notes: Thanks to [info]red_squared for the super quick beta and to the other fabulous Sirius-celebrants, [info]midnitemaraud_r and [info]gryffindor_j!!

James Potter has never taken 'no' for a fucking answer in his life. )

October 16th, 2010

because she kicked my ass @ 10:11 pm

So, the fabulous team of elizassecret, gryffindor_j, okydoky, and chiralove kicked everyone's asses (rather decisively) in the last round of [info]game_is_on. This is eliza's prize.

Are you game?, my October fic at Daily Deviant, Ron/Draco, NC-17. I hope you enjoy it my dearest. I am still bitter, but that did not impact the fic in any way.


August 12th, 2010

Heard from the back seat @ 10:17 pm

Tags: ,

Kid: "Mama, A_____ said that a diddley-doh is a fake penis."

Me: *Takes a moment to figure out what he said. Chokes on her tongue*

Kid: "Mama? Is it?"

Me: *Has no idea what to say here. None. Mutters something lame like, "I'm not sure what that is," and hopes kid will change the subject*

Kid: "When we get home, can I watch the gummi bear song on youtube?"

Having nothing to do with diddley-doh's, go and read this, really do:

Chasing Charlie by [info]woldy. It is a funny, sweet, hot Charlie/Harry and contains this exhchange:

"Well?" Charlie said, raising an eyebrow.

"Here’s another question,” said Harry, heart hammering. “What does it say about you that you tried?"

"It means I like you chasing me.”

"I’m a seeker," Harry told him, suddenly full of the same clarity of purpose that he got when the Snitch was glittering in front of him. "I prefer the catch."

July 14th, 2010

FIC: Twenty Minutes, Harry/Scorpius, NC-17 @ 09:44 pm

Author: [info]mindabbles
Title: Twenty Minutes
Pairing: Harry/Scorpius
Age Disparity: 51/25
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 2,300
Summary: It's been two weeks seen he's seen Harry, and him showing up here and now is not helping Scorpius' nerves.
A/N: The brilliant [info]marguerite_26 had the brilliant idea to hold an impromptu fest -- One Plot, Many Pairings, all with fics written with the prompt: Character A and character B are trapped in a small space and unable to get out. They are tired and uncomfortable and a little too close for comfort. All they have is each other and that makes things both better and worse. Here's my contribution. Thank you to [info]elizassecret for the beta. ♥

Scorpius took a deep breath )

June 12th, 2010

H/D FIC REC! @ 09:15 pm


Ahhh, [info]snegurochka_lee has done it again. Here's a fic that is beautifully written, not a wasted word, incredibly hot, and emotionally intense. It is in second person POV, and I know some people avoid that, but Lee does it beautifully here and to me it only added to the feel of this fic perfectly. It is not long and it is a super quick read, and while it is angsty in some ways it is also awwwwww in others. What are you still doing here???? Go read it and leave her lots of love.

Title: The Den of So-Called Iniquity
Author: snegurochka_lee
Pairing: Harry/Draco
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~4,000
Content: Drug use, but with implied consent on both sides. If that is incongruous to you, you might want to avoid.
Summary: Potter is watching you, as usual, his fingers tight around his glass. You know what will happen if you swallow that potion in such close proximity to Potter – the same thing that has happened every time you've done it so far.

June 2nd, 2010

FIC: Harmony (Left-Handed Melody Remix), H/D, hard R @ 10:36 pm

I did a pinch hit for remix – this was it:

Title: Harmony (Left-Handed Melody Remix)
Characters/Pairing: Harry/Draco
Rating: Hard R, or maybe NC-17. I've lost perspective.
Word Count: 5,800
Summary: He is the last person Draco was expecting, but then again, this is not a place Draco ever expected to be.
Notes: Thanks must be given to the mods for running this extravaganza and to [info]nyargles for the lovely Harmony. Hugs and hugs to [info]elizassecret, my fabulous beta. Here's a little bit of flangst with a touch of smut and a happy ending.

I didn't expect to say this, but I'll do it. )

if the moon is your lantern